2003-06-08

vibrant and shit
my day was unexpected. ashley boy called me up to hang out. so we wandered around downtown then went to whyte ave to meet adam and lucas. two fairly lame high school boys. lucas more so than adam. but once we got there, carla was also with them. i mean, i had no use for them all during school two years ago, i have even less use for them now. and while i was getting myself a drink, they were actually talking about me; "she was stacey's friend..." as if they knew me. as if they know who i am. or who i ever was. i had no desire whatsoever to go to lucas's house to smoke up with them, or to hang around them longer than i already had, which was only maybe six minutes. and i was tired of them. so very tired. i like ashley. i like hanging out with him and talking about cars and motorcycles and bikes and scooters with him, but i don't want hanging out with him to mean hanging out with them. he's a great guy, but i don't like those people and i have no desire to stick around and prove myself to them or show them who i really am. ugh.

and then to top off my kind of sucky revelations day, i didn't even get to go to stars bar and see clockwork and drive by punch play. i have seriously been waiting a fucking month for this show and then no one wanted to go with me. except ashley said he'd meet me down there with adam. but then i really really really didn't want to take the bus downtown and accross whyte ave alone because the other night was scary enough. so yah. i didn't get to do anything that i wanted to do today. suck shit.

and now mum is going to go look for a new house tomorrow with will. it's so weird and kind of fast. since she wants to move this summer. yah right. whatever sis, i doubt it'll happen. ooooooo but seriously wouldn't that be a friggin blast if you moved in with me?!?!? oh man. someday someday...ahhhh

alright i've played enough sega for tonight.

love, this revolution

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