2003-05-19

fuckwit
last night was good. simply because i got over adam. for real this time. in the car she told me all about her and adam. that he told adrian and helen that he was planning on hooking up with her. and they did at the new years party too, and then they've been "hanging out a lot lately" since he got back from victoria. and last night, i wouldn't even call what we did talking. we nodded at eachother and agreed on a few things but we didn't actually talk. and the thing was, i didn't even want to. he seems more and more like a prat every time i see him.

that and the thought of him and kate together makes me slightly ill. and annoyed because the very first night that we met adam she could not stop telling me what a loser he was and now just because i wasn't around ONE NIGHT when he was she decided he was good. grr. why does it still piss me off so much? i don't even like him anymore and i even knew a long time ago that she liked him and wanted him for herself the day after 'the party'but decided not to do anything because of "what happened with him and i that night", which was what, a year and a half ago now? holy. ok.

so. what am i saying? i realized that he likes kate. and that can't be a good sign.

and i've also realized that i don't think that he likes kate. i think that he is just a dick. so really either way i am through with him.

with no turning back.

kate can try and be with him, but i doubt anything other than him fucking her (over) and messing with her head will happen. ah well. i have to contine letting him go. everyday.

i was rather drunk last night as well, due to drinking three beers in about 45 minutes...and i decided that if i had a car there i would steal the art in his bathroom and leave town. instead i settled for writing down the poems and cleaning his kitchen for him when i woke up this morning before anyone else was up.

that's right. zing!

A dream of an eating fork signifies a release from present worries.

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