2003-04-26

clear
thank you sis. again and always. i'm so unbelieveably happy that you and i have gotten so close. because i honestly know that i wouldn't be the woman i am today without you being around. i love you a fabrillion times over.

i walked into the karoke place tonight in the middle of ryan's debut song. some song he sang so high and screamy. but it actually sounded great. he was hot tonight. who knew? hahaha. oh he also sang elvis costello. so perfect. with his collar up.

things with old kd are normal but then again not. i can't figure it out. we're both the same as we always have been, which is to say that i still understand her and i know she still understands me as well, it's just like our friendship is out of context. and i know that the context can be found in the old group of kids we used to hang out with. but i know that that group dynamic is gone and i'm fairly certain it won't be coming back any time soon. so maybe we just need more time to adjust to this new context. i don't know. it's one thirty and all i'm really thinking about is ashley. and how much i like him. after all this time and all that old stuff and all the stuff i thought would still be a problem. and none of it is.

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