the weirdest night i've had in a long time...
i am so drunk.jeff just drove me home and i'm eating shreddies out of the bag and a bottle of water. i have rehearsal at noon tomorrow.shit.i can't stop laughing. and i keep thinking i don't know why my yearbook is open on my lap. but i do know why. ben and ian and all the bitchy girls from high school were at savoy tonight. all my drunken friends from school and i were there too. i had three martini's and a pint of beer. i'm so ddrunk. but ben came over to my table and said hi. and talked for a long time. he's so hot. and adrienne introduced herself and it was so obvious she thought he was hot. because yeah he is.ben. from fucking high school. weird. and ian was there and he's leaving for europe on april thirtieth. for five fucking months. weird.the best part of the night was when we were leaving savoy at the same time as ben and the bitches. and i was at the debit machine after ben was and i was fairly drunk by then so i asked him to put my card in for me and he did and i could hear the bitches behind me, thinking i was out of earshot... or maybe not, i don't know...saying "she's a lesbian. such a lesbian. oh my god." so fucking funny.stupid girls. oh my god. how sad for them that they are still best friends with the same stupid high school girls. and still think that because they were the cool girls in high school that they are still the cool girls. what bullshit. i love all the girls i was out with tonight. i had a fucking blast. so that's great that they think they are better than me and can insult me by saying that i'm a lesbian. oh no. not like i haven't been through that before...ha. but then mer and em said that i was weird when i saw the boys. but it's funny to me because i wasn't being unlike me like they were saying i was, i was just being a side that they haven't seen before. i guess it's just because i've known ben for five years and ian for six, so i am different around them. i'm more outgoing and comfortable and somewhat louder...i wasn't being not me though like they seem to think i was. i was being a me that they just haven't experienced before. and if they think it was just because i'm drunk, so what. because i know that it wasn't. it was just another side of me coming out that they haven't yet seen. oh god. i'm eating dry shreddies at quarter to three am. i have rehearsal at noon. fuck. i'll leave early so i can get a coffee and strudel thing before hand. tomorrow's rehearsal is going to be hell. oh god.

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